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There are so many things I didn't know about being a mom. There were a million things I *thought* I knew before having kids. Pictures in my head of what it would be like...but nothing prepared me for the moment I became "mom."
|Meeting Miss Raya for the first time|
When I thought of my hypothetical children I thought of cuddling a sleepy baby, dressing him/her up and showing off, imagined that I would love my baby, shook my head and smiled in agreement when people told me my whole life would change....
|Meeting Brielle for the first time! (And my "meeting" pictures are proof that epidurals are wonderful lol. I mean, how rough do I look after Raya's labor?! haha...and then with Brielle's it's like "ahhhhh....love you epidural man" :-)|
The reality of being a mom is so much different than I imagined though. For instance, I didn't know...
* the feeling I'd have when I saw my baby for the first time. Complete and utter amazement that I actually grew this little human being inside of me---that she was real!
*that the feeling of amazement would be exactly the same for baby #2. And that I really and truly would love my 2nd child just as much as my first.
* how intense "mommy goggles" are. I completely, 100%, absolutely believe my babies are the most beautiful, precious, perfect little babies on the face of the earth.
* that when other parents would say "sleep now while you can" that it wasn't a haha funny joke...it was a warning. A serious "you will not get a full night's sleep for months, even years....and you will probably never sleep in again-- ever" warning.
* I would happily give up my hard earned money to buy doll clothes and children's museum memberships and overpriced pacis with stuffed animals attached and little squeezable tubes of applesauce---instead of buying things for myself---because I want my girls to have the world.
* that I would no longer feel "sad" when hearing about parents who had lost a child, or who's child was sick, but instead would feel completely devestated when thinking about how horrific it would be to be in their shoes.
* that my kids would honestly become my best friends. Doesn't matter what age they are, I absolutely love spending time with them. They are my favorite people in the whole world.
* that every preconceived idea I had about parenting (discipline, diet, sleep routines, education, developmental, etc.) would be challenged. ....and that I would follow through with approx. 1% of my preconceived parenting ideas, because frankly until you actually are a parent, you just don't have a clue!
* how physically painful it would be to send them to daycare. Not "hard", not "sad", but excruciating. ....and how it'd be willing to do absolutely anything to spend my days at home with them.
* just how much "stuff" kids come with. I still laugh when I think back to my baby shower, and how I carefully chose baby items that "matched" my home decor....and how I arranged and rearranged and prepared our little nursery. ......and now when I look around my house and see hundreds of multicolored toys, books, and baby gear I understand that this house belongs to the kids! ....and I love it :-)
*the feeling I'd get from my own babies' hugs, kisses, and "I love you mommy" declarations. It cannot be put into words how that makes a Mama feel!
....so HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY everyone! I'm spending the day with those two perfect little girls who call me mom :-) And I hope that when they are older they will be able to look back on my sappy blog posts and see how completely, obsessively in love with them I am. I'm surely the luckiest mom on the planet today!
|Pay no attention to the scab under Brielle's eye. Harper simply tried to claw her eyeball out ;-)|
....and Daddy is giving me exactly what I wanted for Mother's Day, which is the icing on the cake!He's completing the lengthy honey-do list I made him of projects I have been wanting done around the house, while the girls and I frolick around town having a girl's day. A perfect Mother's day in my book! Hope you are all having an equally awesome day!
Special thanks to Daddy for my Mother's Day photoshoot!